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Prism
03:12
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Another chance to rid my mind of all the things I can’t escape
You’d think I would’ve gone and lost it all by now
But the truth is I’ve grown accustomed to this life of hell
For years I’ve spent knowing only to hate myself
I’m afraid to get better because I don’t know how
Another chance to rid my mind of all the things I can’t escape
Spending day after day hoping that the world will bring change
But I’ve spent the past few years in this hole
If I want to get better, I’ve got to do it on my own
All alone
As I drown in apathy
I try not to break from the anxiety
I’d let death have me but I’m just not ready
For years I’ve spent wanting it to end
But there’s just so much of this life that I’ve yet to live
So sick of this misery
All I want is to be happy
Hello to uncertainty
Give me a chance to break free
Another chance to rid my mind of all the things I can’t escape
Spending day after day hoping that the world will bring change
But I’ve spent the past few years in this hole
I want to be better, I want to be better
I want to be something more
I want to be more
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2. |
Failure
03:30
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Constant waves of never ending grief
I do my best to live while gritting my teeth
Is this all there is?
A life wanting nothing more than successfulness
And I'm done
Trying to please all of those around me
It’s the bad that seems to always find me
Held down by a life that seems so rough
And I’m done
Pushing myself for the sake of others
Regardless if I'm their son, friend or lover
To them, I'll never be good enough
Constant disappointment
If they only knew how hard it is
To wake up and wish you didn’t
I don’t care what the future holds
I swear if this goes on for another year
I won’t be able to stop it
And I'm done
Trying to please all of those around me
It’s the bad that seems to always find me
Held down by a life that seems so rough
And I’m done
Pushing myself for the sake of others
Regardless if I'm their son, friend or lover
To them, I'll never be good enough
Constant disappointment
Always seeking affirmation
Void of hope
A waste of space
No need for hesitation
Get in the car
Pull the wheel
Let the world take reclamation
A failure in the eyes of everyone I know
I do my best to try but that’s all that’s expected of me
I won’t be the one to make you proud
But I swear I’ll do whatever it takes to be happy
Constant disappointment
And I'm done
Trying to please all of those around me
It’s the bad that seems to always find me
Held down by a life that seems so rough
And I’m done
Pushing myself for the sake of others
Regardless if I'm their son, friend or lover
To them, I'll never be good enough
Hope for a better life or pray for it to end
I’ve always wanted nothing more then to live a life content (I don’t wanna be a failure)
Escape those wasted years and make sure that this one counts
Cause the truth of it all is I’m finding it’s hard im breaking myself apart
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3. |
Nothing
03:41
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I am nothing
And that’s all I’ll ever be
I’ve spent most days
Feeling like I could’ve spent them better
We’re not promised today
And that’s something I’ll always remember
No time to waste
Because times the only thing that never stops
It’s sad to say
I’ve wasted so much with that in my thoughts
Within my thoughts
I am nothing
And that’s all I’ll ever be
Believe that it gets better
At least that’s what I tell myself
To keep me from losing my fucking mind
I hate this feeling of always being miserable
But I’m fucking miserable
You see the reason why I want so much more then what’s expected
Is because life is so much more then the value of your successes
I’d rather end it all right here and now
Then spend a life fixated on how
Some of the best things in life
Come from nothing
I want something more then to just exist
I am nothing
And that’s all I’ll ever be
Believe that it gets better
At least that’s what I tell myself
To keep me from losing my fucking mind
I hate this feeling of always being miserable
But I’m fucking miserable
And I don’t want to be anymore
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4. |
Bliss
03:18
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A constant chase for a high I’ve never felt
It’s the way they all seem so at peace that fills me with jealousy
I wish I could throw away all this sense of reality
But it’s hard to change fact
It’s hard to change the fucking facts
I want to succumb to the fantasy
I just want to believe in anything
This loneliness makes me feel like I can’t coexist
As days go by I just want to live in ignorance
I cant believe in anything anymore
The walls I built up don’t work like they did before
Fill my head with ignorance
So you can drown me in bliss
All I want is to rid my mind of this reality
To give my life some sense of comfortability
I try to leave, but you keep pulling me back. Back just to watch me drown.
These memories will fade away, but your ghost still makes a sound.
Can you feel this misery?
Can you fill this void in me?
Can you promise me it’ll be worth it (in the end)
To see this life for what it isn’t.
This loneliness makes me feel like I can’t coexist
As days go by I just want to live in ignorance
I cant believe in anything anymore
The walls I built up don’t work like they did before
Fill my head with ignorance
So you can drown me in bliss
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5. |
Deteriorate
02:35
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There are thoughts in my head
That I wish I could forget
So much I’ve tried to put in the past
I don’t think I can move on from yet
Constant fear of the next episode
Days or weeks
That’s not something I get know.
Maybe this time I’ll finally take control
It can’t happen again if I just end it all
So as I go on
I forget nothing and everything
Try to make it up as I go
But the truth is I’m fading
I’m not asking for help
I don’t need saving
Save your prayers
For someone with less understanding
I’d trade it all for a piece of mind
Something to help the ups take
Take away the filth inside
I’m running out of smiles to fake
Grasping at something just to fill the spaces
I’m getting so tired of always saving faces
Free me from the darkness inside
I want nothing more then to escape this life
So as I go on
I forget nothing and everything
Try to make it up as I go
But the truth is I’m fading
I’m not asking for help
I don’t need saving
Save your prayers
For someone with less understanding
I’d trade it all for a piece of mind
Something to help the ups take
Take away the filth inside
I’m running out of smiles to fake
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6. |
Comfort
02:51
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There are thoughts in my head
That I wish I could forget
So much I’ve tried to put in the past
I don’t think I can move on from yet
Constant fear of the next episode
Days or weeks
That’s not something I get know.
Maybe this time I’ll finally take control
It can’t happen again if I just end it all
So as I go on
I forget nothing and everything
Try to make it up as I go
But the truth is I’m fading
I’m not asking for help
I don’t need saving
Save your prayers
For someone with less understanding
I’d trade it all for a piece of mind
Something to help the ups take
Take away the filth inside
I’m running out of smiles to fake
Grasping at something just to fill the spaces
I’m getting so tired of always saving faces
Free me from the darkness inside
I want nothing more then to escape this life
So as I go on
I forget nothing and everything
Try to make it up as I go
But the truth is I’m fading
I’m not asking for help
I don’t need saving
Save your prayers
For someone with less understanding
I’d trade it all for a piece of mind
Something to help the ups take
Take away the filth inside
I’m running out of smiles to fake
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